Poetically Wyld

Poetic? yes. Wyld? maybe.

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An Aquarius...

Saturday, December 26, 2015

Crywolf Performing Live!

I have completely fell in love with the performer Crywolf courtesy of Pandora radio station. His track, Eyes Half Closed, is so beautiful and the lyrics are right what I need to hear at this point in my life. I am contemplating heavy changes that are occurring within and around me and his music puts me at ease.

Music has always been my first comforter in times of emotional change, i.e. turmoil, upheaval, contemplation... the style of music depends on what mind-frame I am in... Right now I am in an emotional flux and Crywolf is perfect for my listening needs.

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Christmas Eve 2015!

Alright, the end of the year is quickly coming to a close and I am feeling the nostalgia of the close of a ten year period in my life. I am recognizing what is and what isn't and accepting those things. It's not easy accepting things, truths, that are hurtful to us but it's necessary in order to grow and move on. Some truths are not hard to accept like true feelings towards another person.

I have been in love for a long time now and even though things did not work out the way I had envisioned then, I have learned to stop running from my feelings. My feelings are just that - my feelings. my emotions are what make me who I am and make me compassionate towards others. I am learning to accept my feelings as they are and if/when the opportunity presents itself, deal with them accordingly.

2015 has taught me many things about myself that I didn't want to accept and were the root of my difficulties in love. I realize that those things no longer have any power over me - had not had any power over me except what power I gave them. Now, I am taking back my power and it is a freeing feeling. For 2016 I am getting into the habit of experiencing life more. Enjoying life more and enjoying life with my children more - with or without their father. Life always moves forward whether you are willing or not. Happy Holidays!

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

The Close of Another Year Is Upon Us...

Wow, 2015 is almost finished. This year has definitely been a journey. Looking back on the last ten years and reading some of my older posts has me wrestling with a lot of mixed emotions. Some good, some not so good but as always I have returned to you, my comforter. Poetry has always been my fountain of release and yet these days they are few, unlike ten years ago where the ideas were free flowing like a raging river. Hmm, ten years ago I had easier access to writing time throughout the day.

Coming into 2016 I have set some goals already. I'm not going to list them here but I do have them written down in a notebook so that this time next year I can look back and see how much I have accomplished.

I have grown over this last decade; even though I feel like I have taken some major hits, I know I am stronger for it. My mind recognizes the logic but my heart has yet to catch up. That is one of the things I want to work on majorly in this new year, the translation lag between my logical understanding and emotional understanding because it causing major upheaval in my life and I don't like it.

The kiddies are sleeping and I should be too but these thoughts were weighing on my mind and wouldn't allow me peace so here they are. Good night. Happy Holidays!