Poetically Wyld

Poetic? yes. Wyld? maybe.

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Location: Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, United States

An Aquarius...

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

I've Been Gone For A Little Bit

Life sure can throw curve balls like Rodriguez from The Sandlot.

It's been a couple of years. I've had a couple of interesting occurrences. First, I started promoting my re-released collection of poetry, Entangled Hearts (BlaqRayn 2015) available through PayPal; at The Black Reserve Bookstore in Lansdale, Pa and on amazon.com. I also wrote a new collection of poetry, Reflections: Past, Present, Future (Anitbeet Productions 2018) available through PayPal; Anitbeet Productions and on Amazon also.

I've also met a few interesting people over the last couple of years such as Malik Yoba, Marlon Wayans and Michael Eric Dyson. My goal is still the same, self improvement through self-reflection so I can share my lessons and save someone, somewhere some heartache and time. Time is the only currency we have whose value doesn't change. Let's invest it wisely...

Tuesday, March 08, 2016

Midway Through Tax Season

I haven't been on for a minute because tax season is... taxing. On the mind, body and patience. The independence gained from this position is a wonderful blessing, already looking for something for post-tax season and I am already preparing for next tax season.

Aside from the plans and preparations that are underway I am more relaxed with myself these days, even in a stressed frenzy. I did something I normally don't do - splurged on myself. A tax client informed me that a nearby shop was going out of business and had a sale going on so nosy me, I ventured over to check it out. WOW! I found a gray fedora on sale (40% off) with a pair of wedge sandals (50% off) and a gray cube-shaped purse (30% off)! I may be going back soon because they are closing for good on April 1st!

In case you were wondering, the shop is called CeCe and they are located in the Concourse level of Suburban Station at 16th and JFK Boulevard in Philadelphia, PA. Stop in and grab a few purses or hats or whatever you find! I know I will (again)!

Friday, January 29, 2016

On Why Yet's Watch with Sharai Robbin

I am still interviewing guests on the radio! Last night I interviewed an inspirational lady, Sharai Robbin, and had such a wonderful time talking about life, books and words creating vasts worlds in our imaginations that I didn't want the interview to end. But you can check it out on your own here. I am still reeling and I have to get up early in the a.m. PEACE!

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Happy Birthday Self!

2016 is moving just as I said I wanted it to at the end of 2015... Today I am a glorious 36 years young! No I am not ashamed to tell my age because I have earned EVERY, SINGLE, YEAR I celebrate. And this year I have much to celebrate because for too long I have allowed others' insecurities to influence me and influence my behaviors.

I'm not just talking about my current disgruntled, but soon-to-be ex-boyfriend. I mean all the way back to my own mother. Mom, I love you but it is what it is. I have spent the better part of my adulthood always doing what was considered 'right' instead of doing what was right for me. It cost me. Time. Love. Emotional stability. I endured relationships that I had NO business being in because the other party had no good intentions towards me, but I endured them because I believed it was the right thing to do, I believed I was being a good woman by not running out at the first sign of trouble.

NEWSFLASH: I AM a good woman. I was a good woman before I met them and I will still be a good woman after I leave them. I just didn't see it. It took the love of my life to show me that  I was, am and will continue to be a good woman and I don't need to endure anyone's BULLSHIT ever. Thank you for that.

This time last year I was depressed because my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend had not cared enough to EVER remember my birthday (his daughter kept reminding him every year) in the 9 years we had been together. So I didn't want to do anything for my birthday. And I had just recently given birth to a daughter and a son within a two year span!

I promised myself I would NOT spend another one of my birthdays sulking behind that man! And I meant it. I started celebrating my birthday after the dust cleared from New Years! Right now I am listening to my theme song, Lost At Sea by Zedd, on soundcloud.com.

I have friends who love me, family who love me, and more importantly I love me. I am learning to love myself better, and stronger. And you know what, it feels good because I am a pretty lovable person. I'm an AQUARIUS!

Friday, January 15, 2016

One Day at a Time

Patience. I am learning patience. The more I resist, the more obstacles will appear for me to PRACTICE being patient. I get it. I understand the methods of lesson teaching. For some lessons anyway. Recognizing what is truly going on versus what appears on the surface. Insecurity layered with doubt, anger, fear. That's what I encountered tonight. Actually I have been encountering that for the better part of ten years but I didn't recognize it for what it was - I looked at it for what I WANTED it to be.

Tonight (technically last night because it is 12:08 in the a.m. as I type this) I broadcast my radio show as I usually do but the individual who was supposed to represent my better half stormed around the house yelling and carrying on like a five year-old throwing a temper tantrum. Because I am recognizing the behavior for what it is, I was able to curb my anger by the time I had reached the room where he was. I closed my eyes and focused on breathing and seeing the nature of what was occurring. Being angry because I am pursuing interests separate from him. Being angry because I am giving myself permission to LIVE outside of his existence. Being angry because I am giving myself permission to be ME. I learned (the hard way of course) that it is not my responsibility to appease his anger, especially when I did nothing to cause it. So here I am happily typing away after another successful broadcast of On Why Yet's Watch (this week Matthias Mr. 16 Bars joined me). Check out my wordpress blog to read about it!

Thursday, January 14, 2016

I Can't Run Forever

Musical energy has a very strong effect on me. Music is sensual depending on what instrument is played and how it is played. I am in tune to pianos and acoustic guitars primarily. I am realizing that people and music have similar energies. Love is a beautiful arrangement of color and music to create a soulful painting that holds you close every time you glance at it. I glimpsed it but then ran from it and running did me no good. I can't run from it anymore but I can do nothing about it at the present time. So I need to fine tune my music and brighten my colors...

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Crywolf Performs This Saturday!

I am... I love music. Music expresses those feelings I am unable to communicate (for one reason or another). Music is that warm embrace when the arms I want aren't able to embrace me. Music is forgiving and understanding, like he is. Music is patient and persuasive. Music is him and he is music and our sound waves vibrate in sync... He knows who he is *blush*.

Okay, I digressed a little bit because I am listening to Aporia (Samuel Proffitt Remix) by Crywolf as I am writing this. Crywolf is performing this Saturday in Philadelphia and I have my ticket already! I am ultra excited because this will be my very first music concert ever!

Angels (Acoustic Version feat. Emalyn) is playing and the way Crywolf is picking those guitar strings and he's singing with Emalyn about falling in love for the first time makes me want to cry. I can totally relate. The first time I fell in love... Disney wouldn't be able to make a movie good enough to describe how deep I fell. And still falling. But life happens so what do you do? Go enjoy a musical concert, have a couple of drinks and a good cry every now and then. Or maybe that's just my way of coping - for now.