Poetically Wyld

Poetic? yes. Wyld? maybe.

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An Aquarius...

Wednesday, November 20, 2019

Poetic Inspiration

I follow poets, writers and other creatives on social media and every now and again they'll post something that inspires a new poem. Tonight it was Marlon McGowan. Twice this week he has posted some fire on Facebook that inspired new hotness from me. Therapeutic pieces I might add. This one is called "Thank You"... Let me know what you think in the comments below.

Thank You

I appreciate your sincerity,
honesty and truth.
It is refreshing
after all I've been through.
I've been lied to, cheated on
accused of infidelity
and swung on
but through it all I remained true...
Until in my broken state, I gave up on who I thought I loved.
I know you are not him.
That is for sure.
But my heart is still hurt -
self-trust still unsure.
My judgement of character led me astray
now my self preservation
wants to keep me super safe.
It will take some time
for me to trust again
But understand I'm not punishing you
because of him.
I just need to rebuild me,
To remold me into the beauty I once was
to regain the ability
to enjoy love beautifully
without looking over my shoulder...

- Why Yet 11/20/19

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Tuesday, November 19, 2019

I've Been Away Too Long...

Hello. I know it's been way too long. But, here's why. I've been trying my hand at a Word Press blog (Why Yet's Words) to see what all of the hubbub was about. Nice layout, interesting app features (of which I still don't know the full scope of) and bells and whistles. What I have learned is that I prefer the more intimate atmosphere of my blogger - with you guys. Sharing here is more like I'm chatting with friends I don't get to see as often as I'd like but we still love each other anyway. Relaxed and carefree - how I like it, with no performance pressure. Ha ha - performance pressure. I am going by the pseudonym Why Yet. Hence the website Why Yet's Words. If you are curious about the name, comment below and I'll tell you the back story.

The last we spoke I was preparing to flee a toxic situation. I fled. Last year this past October. The details of that may or may not end up in a tell all (hahahaha) should I muster the strength to put it on paper. I will say this, the level of emotional turmoil dealing with that situation is a cost I do not want to pay ever again in life for anybody. On the upside, I have my health and my children and I purchased my first house so there was some good that came from him being... him. His mistreatment motivated the hell out of me to get away from him. And his reaction when the kids excitedly told him I bought a house... toxic times 10!

But, my 2019 is not over yet. I still have pieces to put into place to set the foundation for my 2020. My twin sons graduate from high school this school year (dances proudly) and I am preparing to reach level 40 in January! I have some celebrities I'd like to meet, places I'd like to see and new things I'd like to try. I have started knitting and crocheting again and I may brush off the old Olympus, charge her battery and snap a few photos for old times sake. I will work hard to stay regular on here now that I am back - again, but know even with an absence, I will always return to you as my first blogging friend. You allow me the space to breathe on screen without having to hide like the Wiz.

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Tuesday, June 19, 2018

I've Been Gone For A Little Bit

Life sure can throw curve balls like Rodriguez from The Sandlot.

It's been a couple of years. I've had a couple of interesting occurrences. First, I started promoting my re-released collection of poetry, Entangled Hearts (BlaqRayn 2015) available through PayPal; at The Black Reserve Bookstore in Lansdale, Pa and on amazon.com. I also wrote a new collection of poetry, Reflections: Past, Present, Future (Anitbeet Productions 2018) available through PayPal; Anitbeet Productions and on Amazon also.

I've also met a few interesting people over the last couple of years such as Malik Yoba, Marlon Wayans and Michael Eric Dyson. My goal is still the same, self improvement through self-reflection so I can share my lessons and save someone, somewhere some heartache and time. Time is the only currency we have whose value doesn't change. Let's invest it wisely...

Tuesday, March 08, 2016

Midway Through Tax Season

I haven't been on for a minute because tax season is... taxing. On the mind, body and patience. The independence gained from this position is a wonderful blessing, already looking for something for post-tax season and I am already preparing for next tax season.

Aside from the plans and preparations that are underway I am more relaxed with myself these days, even in a stressed frenzy. I did something I normally don't do - splurged on myself. A tax client informed me that a nearby shop was going out of business and had a sale going on so nosy me, I ventured over to check it out. WOW! I found a gray fedora on sale (40% off) with a pair of wedge sandals (50% off) and a gray cube-shaped purse (30% off)! I may be going back soon because they are closing for good on April 1st!

In case you were wondering, the shop is called CeCe and they are located in the Concourse level of Suburban Station at 16th and JFK Boulevard in Philadelphia, PA. Stop in and grab a few purses or hats or whatever you find! I know I will (again)!

Friday, January 29, 2016

On Why Yet's Watch with Sharai Robbin

I am still interviewing guests on the radio! Last night I interviewed an inspirational lady, Sharai Robbin, and had such a wonderful time talking about life, books and words creating vasts worlds in our imaginations that I didn't want the interview to end. But you can check it out on your own here. I am still reeling and I have to get up early in the a.m. PEACE!

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Happy Birthday Self!

2016 is moving just as I said I wanted it to at the end of 2015... Today I am a glorious 36 years young! No I am not ashamed to tell my age because I have earned EVERY, SINGLE, YEAR I celebrate. And this year I have much to celebrate because for too long I have allowed others' insecurities to influence me and influence my behaviors.

I'm not just talking about my current disgruntled, but soon-to-be ex-boyfriend. I mean all the way back to my own mother. Mom, I love you but it is what it is. I have spent the better part of my adulthood always doing what was considered 'right' instead of doing what was right for me. It cost me. Time. Love. Emotional stability. I endured relationships that I had NO business being in because the other party had no good intentions towards me, but I endured them because I believed it was the right thing to do, I believed I was being a good woman by not running out at the first sign of trouble.

NEWSFLASH: I AM a good woman. I was a good woman before I met them and I will still be a good woman after I leave them. I just didn't see it. It took the love of my life to show me that  I was, am and will continue to be a good woman and I don't need to endure anyone's BULLSHIT ever. Thank you for that.

This time last year I was depressed because my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend had not cared enough to EVER remember my birthday (his daughter kept reminding him every year) in the 9 years we had been together. So I didn't want to do anything for my birthday. And I had just recently given birth to a daughter and a son within a two year span!

I promised myself I would NOT spend another one of my birthdays sulking behind that man! And I meant it. I started celebrating my birthday after the dust cleared from New Years! Right now I am listening to my theme song, Lost At Sea by Zedd, on soundcloud.com.

I have friends who love me, family who love me, and more importantly I love me. I am learning to love myself better, and stronger. And you know what, it feels good because I am a pretty lovable person. I'm an AQUARIUS!

Friday, January 15, 2016

One Day at a Time

Patience. I am learning patience. The more I resist, the more obstacles will appear for me to PRACTICE being patient. I get it. I understand the methods of lesson teaching. For some lessons anyway. Recognizing what is truly going on versus what appears on the surface. Insecurity layered with doubt, anger, fear. That's what I encountered tonight. Actually I have been encountering that for the better part of ten years but I didn't recognize it for what it was - I looked at it for what I WANTED it to be.

Tonight (technically last night because it is 12:08 in the a.m. as I type this) I broadcast my radio show as I usually do but the individual who was supposed to represent my better half stormed around the house yelling and carrying on like a five year-old throwing a temper tantrum. Because I am recognizing the behavior for what it is, I was able to curb my anger by the time I had reached the room where he was. I closed my eyes and focused on breathing and seeing the nature of what was occurring. Being angry because I am pursuing interests separate from him. Being angry because I am giving myself permission to LIVE outside of his existence. Being angry because I am giving myself permission to be ME. I learned (the hard way of course) that it is not my responsibility to appease his anger, especially when I did nothing to cause it. So here I am happily typing away after another successful broadcast of On Why Yet's Watch (this week Matthias Mr. 16 Bars joined me). Check out my wordpress blog to read about it!