A Pair of Pants...

It's a Saturday night in December. The last month of my third decade and I watched both of the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants movies. A pair of pants helped mend friendships after loss and heartache. I've always believed a good fitting pair of pants can make everything feel better.

I shed a few tears while watching these movies. I understood their painful moments as I have experienced similar pain one way or another in my short lifetime; this pain is what fueled some of my most intense poetry. Pain is a creative you-know-what. But at the end of that pain is a chance to grow and morph into something new.

Pain is the ultimate teacher and until you have felt her sting, you haven't grown. Allow your painful experiences to teach you. Open yourself to the lesson at hand. And even amidst the pain remember - today is always yesterday's tomorrow, so be great today!

Poetic Inspiration

I follow poets, writers and other creatives on social media and every now and again they'll post something that inspires a new poem. Tonight it was Marlon McGowan. Twice this week he has posted some fire on Facebook that inspired new hotness from me. Therapeutic pieces I might add. This one is called "Thank You"... Let me know what you think in the comments below.

Thank You

I appreciate your sincerity,
honesty and truth.
It is refreshing
after all I've been through.
I've been lied to, cheated on
accused of infidelity
and swung on
but through it all I remained true...
Until in my broken state, I gave up on who I thought I loved.
I know you are not him.
That is for sure.
But my heart is still hurt -
self-trust still unsure.
My judgement of character led me astray
now my self preservation
wants to keep me super safe.
It will take some time
for me to trust again
But understand I'm not punishing you
because of him.
I just need to rebuild me,
To remold me into the beauty I once was
internally,
to regain the ability
to enjoy love beautifully
without looking over my shoulder...

- Why Yet 11/20/19

I've Been Away Too Long...

Hello. I know it's been way too long. But, here's why. I've been trying my hand at a Word Press blog (Why Yet's Words) to see what all of the hubbub was about. Nice layout, interesting app features (of which I still don't know the full scope of) and bells and whistles. What I have learned is that I prefer the more intimate atmosphere of my blogger - with you guys. Sharing here is more like I'm chatting with friends I don't get to see as often as I'd like but we still love each other anyway. Relaxed and carefree - how I like it, with no performance pressure. Ha ha - performance pressure. I am going by the pseudonym Why Yet. Hence the website Why Yet's Words. If you are curious about the name, comment below and I'll tell you the back story.

The last we spoke I was preparing to flee a toxic situation. I fled. Last year this past October. The details of that may or may not end up in a tell all (hahahaha) should I muster the strength to put it on paper. I will say this, the level of emotional turmoil dealing with that situation is a cost I do not want to pay ever again in life for anybody. On the upside, I have my health and my children and I purchased my first house so there was some good that came from him being... him. His mistreatment motivated the hell out of me to get away from him. And his reaction when the kids excitedly told him I bought a house... toxic times 10!

But, my 2019 is not over yet. I still have pieces to put into place to set the foundation for my 2020. My twin sons graduate from high school this school year (dances proudly) and I am preparing to reach level 40 in January! I have some celebrities I'd like to meet, places I'd like to see and new things I'd like to try. I have started knitting and crocheting again and I may brush off the old Olympus, charge her battery and snap a few photos for old times sake. I will work hard to stay regular on here now that I am back - again, but know even with an absence, I will always return to you as my first blogging friend. You allow me the space to breathe on screen without having to hide like the Wiz.