Current Events 2020

Well, what can I say about 2020 thus far? She pulls no punches. Celebrity deaths, air-borne viruses, a blatantly inept administration in the White House and people in panic mode, expecting the zombie apocalypse any day now.

As unnerving as this COVID-19 (corona virus) is, I am using this time to learn a few new things. And to revisit some old goals.

This does put a damper on my graduation celebration plans for my twins. My two little ones, however, enjoy not having school right now (they've been out since March 13th, but the teachers have been sending assignments to keep the students engaged). Teachers, healthcare workers and retail associates are rockstars right now! The value of certain occupations has been highlighted brightly during this corona crisis and I hope they are compensated accordingly after the dust settles from this.

We are currently practicing social distancing, so essentially we are supposed to stay home except for those essential employees; and for others, they are only suggested to leave the house to get groceries or go to doctor's appointments. Yeah, tell that to Mr. Softee riding down my street multiple times a day while the weather is dry and the group of local thug-boys who want to hang out in groups on the block... I guess Corona will have to creep up on them to get their attention!

Until next time. Stay safe, stay inside, keep clean and learn something new!

The End of a Decade...

Most of the New Year hubbub has died down, for everyone else, but not for me. After Christmas I am always on my birthday countdown mode. This year is especially important for me because I am closing out my third decade.

When I started this blog I was an excited, emotional, eager-to-learn and grow 26 year old. I had no clue what I wanted or where I was going or even how I was going to get there once I figured out where there was. I just knew I had a whole Leave-It-To-Beaver life waiting for me at the end of that dream.

Life has jokes. The universe looked at me and said, "Honey, please! Look here and take some damn notes!" I didn't want to take notes so the detours I had endured in my thirties left me bruised and a little beaten but I'm still here.

I am still here. I am still writing poetry. I have returned to knitting and crocheting. I have birthed 2 additional children and left a whole other relationship I had hoped would be my last. My bruises go deep. But I am learning that my strength goes deeper. I am looking forward to this new year and the start of my new decade. I must admit I am a little afraid of how deep this strength goes and what that strength can produce but if you're curious as I am, stay tuned...

Happy New Year!

Another year has come to a close so a new one can begin. 2019 has had many lessons for me. Some new and some returning lessons I did not heed when they first appeared. The pain of repeating a lesson is hard to accept but necessary to grow. That includes people, places and ideas.

My main lesson in 2019 was to learn to let go. We teach people how to treat us by what behaviors we condone by open acceptance or passive allowance. I have been passively allowing behaviors that did not serve my higher self and left me feeling less than my fabulous self. That is unacceptable. I had to look hard at myself. Acknowledgement is the first step. Setting firm boundaries is the second step. Taking progressive action is the third step.

2020 is the beginning of a new cycle. What progressive action steps will you take in 2020? What firm boundaries will you put in place to protect and preserve your higher self? Remember, today is yesterday's tomorrow - so be great today!

Counting Down to My Birthday!

This time of used to excite me as a child because I would be waiting to uncover gifts on Christmas. As I grow older the excitement has shifted from expecting gifts to celebrating my birthday and growing into another level of life.

This birthday coming has more significance for me as it is the closing of a decade and as I look back on the lessons learned, I am grateful. I have had to readjust and reevaluate what is absolutely important to me so I can focus my energy on those who matter. Myself included.

My goals for this new season is to continue to grow by facing old ways of thinking and removing or correcting them. Stepping out of my comfort zone so as to step into my gifts and all of that good stuff. Becoming healthier is always on my agenda so I don't even bother with the whole 'new year, new you' craze every January. I know I'm not going to anybody's gym in the winter (or the summer for that matter). But change and growth is afoot and I am embracing it all. Anyhoo, happy holidays and see you on the other side of this approaching solar eclipse!

A Pair of Pants...

It's a Saturday night in December. The last month of my third decade and I watched both of the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants movies. A pair of pants helped mend friendships after loss and heartache. I've always believed a good fitting pair of pants can make everything feel better.

I shed a few tears while watching these movies. I understood their painful moments as I have experienced similar pain one way or another in my short lifetime; this pain is what fueled some of my most intense poetry. Pain is a creative you-know-what. But at the end of that pain is a chance to grow and morph into something new.

Pain is the ultimate teacher and until you have felt her sting, you haven't grown. Allow your painful experiences to teach you. Open yourself to the lesson at hand. And even amidst the pain remember - today is always yesterday's tomorrow, so be great today!

Poetic Inspiration

I follow poets, writers and other creatives on social media and every now and again they'll post something that inspires a new poem. Tonight it was Marlon McGowan. Twice this week he has posted some fire on Facebook that inspired new hotness from me. Therapeutic pieces I might add. This one is called "Thank You"... Let me know what you think in the comments below.

Thank You

I appreciate your sincerity,
honesty and truth.
It is refreshing
after all I've been through.
I've been lied to, cheated on
accused of infidelity
and swung on
but through it all I remained true...
Until in my broken state, I gave up on who I thought I loved.
I know you are not him.
That is for sure.
But my heart is still hurt -
self-trust still unsure.
My judgement of character led me astray
now my self preservation
wants to keep me super safe.
It will take some time
for me to trust again
But understand I'm not punishing you
because of him.
I just need to rebuild me,
To remold me into the beauty I once was
internally,
to regain the ability
to enjoy love beautifully
without looking over my shoulder...

- Why Yet 11/20/19

I've Been Away Too Long...

Hello. I know it's been way too long. But, here's why. I've been trying my hand at a Word Press blog (Why Yet's Words) to see what all of the hubbub was about. Nice layout, interesting app features (of which I still don't know the full scope of) and bells and whistles. What I have learned is that I prefer the more intimate atmosphere of my blogger - with you guys. Sharing here is more like I'm chatting with friends I don't get to see as often as I'd like but we still love each other anyway. Relaxed and carefree - how I like it, with no performance pressure. Ha ha - performance pressure. I am going by the pseudonym Why Yet. Hence the website Why Yet's Words. If you are curious about the name, comment below and I'll tell you the back story.

The last we spoke I was preparing to flee a toxic situation. I fled. Last year this past October. The details of that may or may not end up in a tell all (hahahaha) should I muster the strength to put it on paper. I will say this, the level of emotional turmoil dealing with that situation is a cost I do not want to pay ever again in life for anybody. On the upside, I have my health and my children and I purchased my first house so there was some good that came from him being... him. His mistreatment motivated the hell out of me to get away from him. And his reaction when the kids excitedly told him I bought a house... toxic times 10!

But, my 2019 is not over yet. I still have pieces to put into place to set the foundation for my 2020. My twin sons graduate from high school this school year (dances proudly) and I am preparing to reach level 40 in January! I have some celebrities I'd like to meet, places I'd like to see and new things I'd like to try. I have started knitting and crocheting again and I may brush off the old Olympus, charge her battery and snap a few photos for old times sake. I will work hard to stay regular on here now that I am back - again, but know even with an absence, I will always return to you as my first blogging friend. You allow me the space to breathe on screen without having to hide like the Wiz.